I did it

I did it. I put myself out there. I sent in four ideas, now I have to wait and see if they're good enough to be pitched. Haven't sent my baby in yet, I want to get the treatment done first. If nothing comes of this I don't know what I'll do- this is a real good way to destroy my creative self-esteem. At least someone thinks my writing is okay- thanks German! I know it's not much but heck, better that then nothing. I haven't really written anything but school papers since my early 20s. I guess being a mechanic and getting stuck in a bad marriage did more to me then I thought. Then when I went back to school I spent my time perfecting my nonfiction writing skills. But something happened, I'm not sure what- I think it may actually have been committing myself to sending these ideas in- but the proverbial dam broke and now I want to write creatively. Heck, if I don't hear back on one of the ideas I may just turn it into a book after all! Who knows? And yes, I am feeling very optimistic today.